Monday, November 2, 2009

ShARe feeLiNG ON MoNdAY moRniNg

dah agak da jd mcm ni... ntah pehal.asal en.wan ade keje wekend aku pon jd mantel. then setan pon dtgla mengganggu. kami ni antara couple yg jarang2 berperang..i guess so.. tp kalu gado 2, xde la gado manje, trus perang besar je..susahkan nak bezakan between jelous n risau.  sometime when kita worried about dia,  he would say like kita jelous n try 2 control him, padahal actually kita ni risaukan dia.. yela as man can't resist temptation. so as wife i remind myself  2 be really careful of those matters. u know what i mean rite?? 

it's not really what i'm trying to story 2day. just to share something from me as a wife "point of view". yela selalunya setiap org hanya pandai menilai kesusahan diri sendiri sj tanpa mengambil kira or mempertimbangkan kesulitan org lain..sehinggala org 2 bercerita kat dia. so aku nak citakanla apa yg aku alami selama ni. n aku harap sgt org dpt faham n please don't judge me anymore. bkn bermakna mengenepikan pandangan org lain cuma nak luahkan perasaanla kira ni. n kalu my hubby read this. this is what came from my heart "sy memang nak sgt tau ape yg awk rasa. kalu xcerita sampai bila kita akan terus buat penilaian sendiri"

long lost friend meet me yesterday, suddenly out of no where leh jumpa lak kat tnjung malim. she's married n currently pregnant her second child. so we have some chit chat. n suddenly i was shocked with what she said.

"ala nad, be careful as u know, army memang suka main kayu tiga with her ketawa2 as it was sooooo dam funny. u pon nampak ok je kan jg maira, bwk dia ke hulu ke hilir mcm ni, kalu i da lame i hantar kmpung..penat tau"

if u r in my shoe wat should u answer???http://www.emocutez.com

"em.. i ok je. wat ms ni my marriage pon ok je. i redha je dgn dugaan tuhan..mungkin ada hikmah"

walaupon rase mcm nak sepak dia..http://www.emocutez.comtp aku control je..wat2 ayu walaupon xla ayu sgt.. then got back from the stupid conversation, aku call wan, n sadly n aku da agak wan ckp

"ala..aygkn ok je kat ctu.. abg tau ayg kuat.."

nothing much i can say.. ye kan ajela.. tp jauh di dalam hati ku ahaks! ayat jiwang aku agak merana...http://www.emocutez.com just imagine from the 2nd weeks of ur marriage u da pon tinggal asing dgn ur hubby. plus terdampar kat negeri org tanpa ade sorang pon sedara mara kat cni. org yg da pnah jalani kawin PJJ ni dia fahamla. kdg2 aku sakit hati jugak bila org kata, ko ok je walau jauh, ko rilek je, tp korang tau ape? xkanla hari2 aku nak sedey. nak menjaja cite aku kat korang sume..

just imagine.. dulu b4 pregnant. bleh kata everyweek aku blk kampung. nek bas dr tnjung ke pudu, dr pudu naik bas ke tangkak. n pernah skali 2 xdpt bas..aku naik komuter ke smban. n kebetulan bulan pose, aku xready pon ape2 nak wat buka pose. so just korek idung ajela.huhuu just kidding! then ms pregnant dlm 5 bulan pnah skali 2 kl banjir kilat. aku terpaksa menapak dr penjara pudu ke puduraya.dgn bwk perut memboyot n beg baju + 1 paper beg lagi..http://www.emocutez.com sedey giler. masa 2 dlm kol 9 malam. aku jalan sambil nangis. tp mak n wan tepon aku kontrol je.. wat2 mcm rilek. then skrg dah ade baby..lagi mencabar. nak makan susah, kencing, berak n smayang pon susah. aku lak jenis xley dgr dia nangis..xsmpai ati..

so 2 la asam garam dlm umah tangga. da ini yg aku pilih, so aku kene redha. tp please pd sume org, jgn suka lemahkan semangat aku n jgn cuba utk adili aku. aku wat sejauh mana yg aku mampu. aku sentiasa pk positif n seboleh2 cuba elak perasaan sedey.... ok. 2 je akak nak share rini. pehal la aku EMO giler ni... huhuhuuuu. jgn makan atila ye..sesapa yg terasa ke aku mintak maaf. sesungguhnya berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu yg memikul.

P/S: i consider my self as lucky, evethough duduk asing but still dua2 kat semenajung. ramai lagi kwn2 wan yg kene posting kat srawak or sabah..musti lagi sedey.
xsabo nak tgu cik wan posting sg.buloh..ari2 leh dating n ari2 leh gado! yeeeehaaaaaaa http://www.emocutez.comhttp://www.emocutez.comhttp://www.emocutez.com

2 comments:

  1. Nad, biasalah org suka menilai kehidupan kita tetapi tak pernah nk memahami apa yg kita lalui...So byklah bersabar nad.. :)

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  2. sabar je la nadia...yg dh kwn ke belum kwn ke ade bahagian msing2..tp entry kau ni menyedarkan aku bahawa setiap org ade ujian masing2..

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